The feeling of running and fleeing cause it is just to much.

I knew I would see you around again. I would be at a wedding or having lots of fun and you would just show up and I would struggle to walk out. I could be sitting in my car just reminiscing about the good times and you would come peeking around, I would pretend that I didn't notice you although you are blatantly there. 

I just needed some time, so I could get on with my life and you could go to hell. 
Thought I would be fine, but maybe not I knew you would find a way to get back to me. 

I am running and running hard looking for a place to hide and escape your emotional abusive behavior. I have my walls of support and you are not getting back in!

I know you to well and I know myself to well. 

Creeping, Stop it!

I can feel you around me but I want you to leave! Understand that I no longer want you in my life and I am trying to move on!

I feel an overwhelming sadness, loneliness that cannot be described. You make me second guess every choice I have ever made. You make me replay moments in life and over analyze the little details that no longer matter.

I keep on pushing but you are pushing back harder than ever and I can't control the emotions that I feel. Little things have made me upset and the staleness of daily life has somehow feels like overwhelming of nothing accomplished in life.

I have family
I have friends
I have everything that I need yet you make me feel unsatisfied.

I'll take my daughters advice, if you don't get up and do something you might miss out on all the fun. She is only 4.

Just a little on how I am feeling today. I will be better tomorrow